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Kinda trippy. Nonetheless, I like it. Especially the chorus. He's so cute. XD

So I went and OMG, so much fun!!!  I got to hang out with so many friends I don't get to see very often, and I even made some new friends! ^_^  I got to see Uchuu Sentai Noiz, cuz they decided to do another concert and I went to their panel and took a picture with them!!  There was also another JRock artist Kiryu, who's new, and he seemed cool.  I got his CD and he autographed it, and I took a pic with him. ^^  I never found any lolita items that I liked which also fit me and I could afford, but I got some Hangry & Angry tops.  The next day was like... lolita day for me.  It was the fashion show and hanging out with friends and I did end up being able to get a couple lolita items in the end!  <3

And for the first time ever I have made a video!!! XD

And now.  I swoon.

I had high expectations for this weekend.  I was going to hang out with friends on Friday, go to the Hello Kitty exhibition on Saturday, then celebrate a friend's birthday on Sunday.  Well, the Friday plans got cancelled, my friend whose birthday we were going to celebrate remembered she had to go to a baby shower on Sunday, and then when I drove all the way to Culver City for the Three Apples event, there was a huuuuge line going down the block and my mom and I just didn't want to stay and wait for however many hours for the events that would probably be over by the time we got inside.

I've debated whether or not to go to the AP Tea Party at PMX and finally decided not to go.  If I were a bigger fan of AP and actually had an AP outfit to wear, I probably would, but at the moment I just don't feel like putting down forty-five dollars for a tea party.  But I might try to go to the fashion show on Sunday.  Hm.

Just now I got back from the Marukai Book-Off cuz I wanted to sell some of my old manga.  The original value for all of them was over a hundred and fifty dollars, so I was hoping for maybe twenty to thirty dollars.  They gave me six dollars and sixty cents.  I know they're out to make profit and everything, but... I felt insulted.  Just so stupid.  I shouldn't have let them pay me six-sixty, I should have kept the books and tried ebay instead.

I feel so shitty right now, you have no idea.

I think one big difference between American rock and Japanese rock is that a lot of American rock is about the bad stuff, like violence, drinking, obsessions, drugs, break-ups, sex, and it kinda puts me in a... angry, rebellious kinda mood.  There's a lot of negativity.  Not all of it is tho, there's some really great songs.  But in general, that's the feeling I get.  But with JRock, a lot of it is uplifting and positive and I just want to smile and laugh and dance.  I look at American rock stars and see rebels and attitude and people smoking and using the word "fuck" like it makes them sound cool or something.  Then I look at Japanese rock stars and they dress in bright colors or funky, cool outfits, they laugh, joke around, and act goofy and silly.  It warms my heart. <3

PLUS
Yayayayay, new music video from G-D!!


Sometimes I think the world just needs a bright, colorful bandaid to feel better.

I'm looking forward to PMX, it'll be my first time going.  Anyone else I know going to be there?  Anybody~?  I'll be wearing my Btssb jumperskirt and hopefully be shopping around the Angelic Pretty boutique. XD

Also, Hello Kitty exhibition in LA at Royal/T!!!  YES!!!! ^___^

Finally: New PV by Girugamesh!!!  Ah, Satoshi, so smexy you are.......

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I don't care who reads this, I just feel so awful right now...  I just got into a fight with my dad.  Well, not totally a fight cuz he doesn't really do that, yelling or arguing or the like.  But just... it's just me and him this weekend so as we were driving home from getting my senior portrait done, I thought "Maybe we could go out to eat and spend some time together."  So I asked him if he wanted to go out to eat and he said okay.  Then I told him to pick a place and he wouldn't.  He just told me wherever I wanted in this really tired voice, so I thought that maybe he didn't really want to.  After awhile I pulled into a random parking lot (I was driving) and told him I wouldn't move until he decided where HE wanted to go.  And he just wouldn't.  Then he got out of the car and walked away.  Just like that.

And I just sat in the car and cried cuz we have such a horrible relationship, but I never know what he wants and he never says what he wants and I'm just so frustrated and feel like he doesn't want to spend time with me or something.

When he finally came back, I just drove us home and that's about where I am now.  Rubbing tear streaks off my face and waiting for him to heat up dinner.  I just... really wanted to vent.  I want to go do something now or be... not here right now.  Fuck.  Whatever.

So school started a few weeks ago, I'm finally a senior!!!  Whooo!  But this year has been kind of depressing cuz I feel like I'm just not great friends with... well, anybody.  I have lots of general friends I hang out with, but there's no one who shares my interests, no one that I can just talk to about anything.  Probably my closest friends are people who live somewhat far away from me.  T__T  What got me most depressed was that I wanted to go to the Glay concert, but my parents have this rule that I can only go to a concert if I have someone to go with me.  But no one wanted to (or the few who did want to, couldn't), so I ended up not being able to go.

But anyway, I'm trying to be much more active.  I'm talking to new people and joining new clubs and going to activities and just trying to go do stuff!  I joined fashion club, which is a stretch for me.  I'd always wanted to before, but felt like I would be out of place among daunting, snobby-like people (and I was right!) but I hope I'll get to know them and maybe even become friends with some of them.  I'm thinking I want to try learning about being a makeup artist.  I love makeup and experimenting with different looks, so learning to do it for other people might be really fun!  Also, I don't think I have what it takes to be a designer, and I don't think I'm cut out for modeling, not to mention I can't sew for crap.  XD

I'm on a total Lolita high right now.  I really want to get together with the couple of friends I have that like lolita and do something!  Tea party, photoshoot, anything!  I'm super excited because I just got my first real burando item--a jsk by Baby the stars shine bright!!!!  I saw it on clothing-drop for an unbelievably low price and it had measurements that would actually fit me well!  I bought it the next day (Sunday) and it just arrived today!!  Glorious! <3

I have a pic that I took really quick using the timer on my camera.  Kind of a crappy shot, and my hair looks horrible cuz I just had it in a messy bun all day and then came home and put it in pigtails for the outfit. ^___^

It all started with Anime Expo.  Need I say how amazing it was?  Friends, anime, cosplay, lolita, jrock, craziness, all mushed together into four amazing days?  It was amazing.  Did I mention how amazing it was?

After that I was up at a girl scout camp in the mountains as a counselor.  I have to say, when I was a camper, I never quite realized how hard a counselor's job is.  It's quite stressful and a lot of work.  But it definitely had lots of fun moments as well, no denying that.  I've always gone up there in the summer and it's something I can't quite imagine not doing.  It's like my second home up there.

Well, now I'm home and left with not even a week before school starts again.  I can't believe I'm going to be a senior!!  Eee, so exciting!  But there's still a lot I want/need to get done before summer ends: I need to go to the beach, I haven't been ALL freakin' summer.  I need to finish summer homework and start on some scholarship applications.  Hopefully I'll get up to Little Tokyo sometime soon, and I'd like to check out the Atomic Ballroom.  And maybe, maybe, hopefully going to see GLAY if I can find someone to go with. ^^

And OMG, new PVs from Alice Nine!!!!! <3

More and more I'm getting excited for AX and everything I'm going to do there.  I'm almost afraid I won't have time for everything I want to do.  Not unheard of as far as AX is concerned.  Then I'm going up to camp to be a counselor apprentice, which I'm totally excited for, but then I realize I'll have to miss the VAMPS concert. D8  I was hoping that since the breaks between camp sessions is usually on a weekend, I'd be able to make it, but nope.  Not happening. T.T 

Also, I have decided that Girugamesh's new song "Alive" is like.  The best.  Omigosh.  Been listening to it nonstop for almost an hour or so now.

And I just finished all of the anime available for Initial D (an interesting anime...), plus the live-action movie with Jay Chou (kyaa~) and have decided that, as non-canon as it is, Takumi and Keisuke need to get together.  My yaoi fangirl instincts tell me so. *_*

Moi dix Mois at AX???? http://www.anime-expo.org/2009/06/17/moi-dix-mois-to-rock-anime-expo-2009-as-official-guest-of-honor/  I am THERE!!!  So excited~  I was afraid they weren't going to have any fun JRock concerts... Don't get me wrong, Morning Musume is love, but they aren't... rock... :/  Anywayz.  I am getting more and more excited for AX everyday.  This year is going to be epic, I know it.

Alsooooooooooooooo, my friend and I went to the Cute and Dangerous art opening, and since there was supposed to be a meetup, we went in lolita-ish clothes.  (I dunno, we were lolita, but also kinda... not... but yeah? Idk.  Loli-inspired.)  We got shot (lol) by a photographer from 944.   http://www.944.com/nightsites/gallery/cute-and-dangerous-at-seven-degrees-gallery/1328607/ Yay~ it was rather exciting.  The meetup kind of didn't happen, but it was fun going to the exhibit anyway.

Got a new dress from fanplusfriend~!  My impulse buy, haha.  It's actually a little big on me, but that's okay, it's not hugely noticeable.  Unfortunately it's still all wrinkled from being cramped in it's shipping bag, but I think it looks nice.  I'm rather pleased.  Besides, it's my first full dress, I only had blouses and skirts before this. ^^



Also, my wonderful mom took me to Ross and bought me a few shirts.  Not the amazing shopping spree I really wanted, but Ross is fun to dig around in.  Not the nicest stuff, but they do have some fun things.  I got this hippie shirt-thing that's pretty cool, and a hello kitty shirt, plus a few others. XD  And there's a pair of heels I might go back for and buy on my own.  XD  Oh, clothes, how I love thee.

Now if only I had more free time.  I've been working on physics projects like non-stop since Saturday.  Ughhhhh, I hate the end of the school year.  The teachers have NO MERCY.

I have been feeling so blah lately... Not wanting to do anything.  I really want to be working on art or something, or I should probably be studying for the multitude of AP tests/finals coming up.  But... no.  I kinda just get home and take a nap. :/

Been looking through lots of fashion blogs lately...  Anybody have anything to recommend?  I want to be inspired.  Anything art/fashion/jrock would be awesome.

Also: can't decide if I want to cut my bangs again or grow them out.  Meh.

Lol, crack pic.  This is my BJD Alek.  He's a Delf El from Luts and still doesn't have a completed shirt. >.<  But he will one day!

OMG, just back from the An Cafe concert~!  *twirl and sigh*  It was soooooo much fun.  I dressed up for this one.  Much thanks to Megan for informing me of the concert/letting me hang out with her at the concert/getting the restaurant reservations.  ^^  And I can't forget about everyone else--Kevin, Michelle, and the other people I just met.  Fun people make fun times and when it's at An Cafe's concert, that just triples the fun. XD  So yeah, I'm not feeling very articulate at the moment, so maybe a longer post will come later, but for now, I'd just like to say: Miku's pants are deliciously amazing and sparkly. XD

Nyaaaaaapppppyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!

Miyavi got married?!  And I find out from my Japanese teacher of all people???!!  How did I miss this?  If this is like... common knowledge or something, I'm gonna totally go bash my brain against the wall.

EDIT: But I know he and melody will have a damn cute baby. XP

Everybody watch.  It's epic.  Happy April Fools!